Thank you, all of you who commented so compassionately about launching my son off to college. Well, he's in! This is hard business, Moms, let me tell you. This is 100 times harder than the first day of kindergarten, and I thought that was bad! I am exhausted, but I have so much I'd like to share about this experience. I'll probably write more another time.
I will say that only a mom can understand what it means to see the little one who was always underfoot walk around a college campus adjusting to his new "home." Jordan has always had the same walk, the same way of carrying himself; we can spot him a mile away. I watched him smile and talk with strangers tonight, and only his dad and I knew how truly uncomfortable he was. He would rather be about anywhere else, and I know he feels lonely, but he is being very adult about the whole deal and knows this is a good thing. I don't feel so much like an adult; I feel like a cry-baby.
Nevertheless, I am very proud of our new "Raven." And, it was really a blessing to hear the President encourage the freshmen in the Lord and know that when my son went back to his room tonight, there would be no school-sponsored condom bingo for freshmen in his dorm. I am not making that up; that's what the state school in our city did for freshmen two years ago.
So, he's in a strange place sharing a stuffy room with a stranger, but I know he is in God's hands, and that God knows him more intimately than his parents do. In fact, He can spot him a mile away, too, and knows the very number of the hairs on his head and the entire span of his days--so I know that Jordan is not really alone and that Someone who loves him even more than I do is watching over him. And that is how I will be able to fall asleep tonight.