Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I'm Banded

Right now I am sporting two very fashionable bracelets--two paper bands around my right wrist, the kind that someone straps on you which must be cut off when you want to be free.

They are the kind you get in the hospital if you're the person (besides the mom of the newborns) who has access to the babies and can be with them alone while Mom showers or whatever.

I am the banded aunt-in-law to a young woman who just gave birth to preemie twins, boy and girl. Mom and babies are coming to live in our home when they leave the hospital; therefore, I am like next of kin, in a local, female, married-into-the-family, live-with-you way.

I am banded. This is monumental to me.

First of all, I'm scared. I'm scared about the whole thing, about a little family coming to live with us and all that that implies.

Secondly, I'm nervous. Nervous about losing sleep because 2 tiny newborns MUST be put on a strict schedule, and Mom is going to need help at 3:00am. I believe when one accepts the bands, she is expected to step up. Gulp.

Thirdly, I'm having mild anxiety attacks during the night and first thing in the morning when I wake up because--what if I fail--in any sense of the word--fail to help the mom, fail to do something essential for the babies, fail to remain loving, calm, cool, collected, fail to be wise, fail to represent how a person of faith behaves when she is stressed. So much at stake.

And then, I pick up one of the twins. And all of the periphery concerns, current events and hand-wringing seem to fade into a blurry background.



Can you tell that as I write this there is a knot forming in my throat choking back my tears and that my heart is speeding up? Because this is how I feel when I look at this pic even after having been with them all day yesterday and today.

I do not know how this will work out. It could be a colossal disaster. But it is happening out of love for the mom and her babies. May God step in and fix the things I screw up. (Please, God--just show up! HELP!)

So I am banded and bonded already, and they are just now 24 hours old.

Scared but hopeful.

Lost but trusting.

Anxious but committed.

Mostly, though, I just feel banded, not only at the wrist but in my heart as well. Not only to babies, but to Mom.

2 Chronicles 20:12 "Oh, Lord, we do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you!"

So, Welcome to the world, little ones. This is your crazy old Great Aunt Linda writing about you on her blog, which will someday seem as antiquated to you as the telegraph does to me. Just want to say, "You are loved." And thank you for the blog fodder I know you are going supply me with, beginning with the outrageous amount of poo you supplied us with today.

Brother on the left, sister on the right.

21 comments:

Joyce said...

How exciting...they are precious! Love covers a multitude of things...you will do great!

LuAnn said...

awwww - congratulations Great Aunt Linda- What a blessing you will be to this little family.

Kelli said...

Sortof feeling like a first-time parent all over again, eh? well, it will all kick in because, quite simply, God does not call us to anything we cannot handle with His help.

So, jut love on that little family as much as you can, and the rest will work out :)

Promise you.

Kelly Combs said...

I got goosebumps reading it, and the picture with you in it is divine! God loves your heart Lid. Thanks for sharing it!

laurie said...

how exciting, let the fun begin!

JackyJo said...

Wow! So excited (& scared) for you! Praying for peace, grace & soft washcloths!
Blessings!
Jackie

Mocha with Linda said...

Love the pics. Love you.

Praying for you.

Susanne said...

They are absolutely adorable! Wow, you guys are in for a change around the house. I'm sure there will be way more smiles and love than any mistake that can be made. Blessings to you as you take this on!

Linda said...

sweet little precious bundles that you are banded and bonded to! Take it one hour at a time, less if need be, and keep giving it over to God. He will supply everything! Praying.

Joanna said...

Realize that you are helping Mom and that it's not all resting on you. I think you will be blessed for it in more ways than you thought.

LynnMarie said...

What a life changing decision you have made! Not just for you but for the mom, the babies and your family. God will give you all whatever you need. What fun lies ahead.

Robin @ Be Still and Know said...

Oh how my memory banks are being stirred up. My sister gave birth to twins, fraternal just like you precious babies, 14 years ago. I remember those days of helping out, two tiny mouths, two tiny everything....

My sister was in labor for ....wait for it....three days...

Interestingly my niece was born at 11:39 pm and then my nephew was born at 12:09 am so they have different birthdays, kinda cool I thought.

Thankfully my sister did not live to far from me at the time so I was able to help out with out to much disruption to my own household.

I commend your willingness to open your home and I know that your niece will be greatly impacted by your act of love and service.

Blessings
R

PS: If memory serves, I had a special band too, my nephew had a few small complications and was in the NICU for a few days so my sister and I would take turns between the nursery and the NICU...

Barbara said...

What a blessing you are to mama and babes, Linda! God bless and Happy Thanksgiving!

Barbara

Pamela said...

They already have your love and the rest of what they need will come along...promise you.

You have so much love to give and the more you give it, the more God gives you to spill out...overflowing.

Bless you for helping your family.

STILLMAGNOLIA said...

What a wonderful blessing. I will be praying for you all. God Bless You and Your Family.

Fawn said...

Sounds like my prayer often, "God, please step in and fix the things I screw up. (Please, God--just show up! HELP!)"

Teri~Facedown said...

I just stopped by to see what's up because I was seeing pictures of you and twins on FB. Linda, you are awesome. I want you to know that if you waited until you had it all together to help people, you'd never do it. God uses us despite our shortcomings, and God is USING you girl. :) I love this!

Jenny @ flutterbyechronicles said...

They are so precious. Prayers to you and your family on this journey.

Roxanne said...

Wow. . .what an adventure. They have been with you now for about two weeks. I KNOW that God showed up, and I hope you are making it through. You are a blessing.

DebC said...

What an adventure,
one day at a time.

Dionna Sanchez said...

They are so blessed to have you. "In our weaknesses, He is strong."